Morning PagesNovember 14, 2014

Pathology and Oneness

Last night I had a dream about poisonous jelly fish, or at least they were meant to be. I didn’t have any ill effects except on my right side around my ovary. The rest of the stings simply washed off. So I search for the significance of the right ovary and find Dr. Northrup mentioned in a blog about ovarian cysts. Reading the article I realise two things.

1) The story that Dr. Northrup and Louise Hay tell about the body as a vehicle of self-awareness feels true. The ovaries are our seat of creative power in the world and our thoughts and feelings are linked to our bodies through our endocrine, nervous and immune systems.

2) There is no need to pathologise this awareness.

We can know this story as true just as easily bypassing the ‘blocked energy’ and ‘unexpressed emotion’ idea (which makes you or somebody else wrong) and going straight to life as an intuitive conversation.

My ovaries are lighting up or getting loud and asking me to pay attention. What am I being asked to pay attention to?

If I was standing in the middle of the tribe being acknowledged for my power, my place, my purpose, what would the message be?

This is your affirmation!

The universe does not want to communicate in pathologies, it wants to highlight experiences that remind you of what matters. Your ovaries are creativity and cycles of emotional expression. Celebrate them! There is nothing ‘wrong’, you are simply being asked to become aware. This awareness does not have to be fixed.

If the current story says you are ‘working too much’ then how can you know this without making yourself wrong, without having to change or heal some part of yourself? When you make yourself wrong, there is no room to nuzzle in and get to know the real, naked you. All of the aspects that emerge to represent you are either shut down or remodelled into something more appropriate. “You” get lost and buried under all that remodelling.

I know it seems counter-intuitive. “How can my aggression be good for me?” you ask. “How can it be appropriate to laze around all weekend eating and ignoring everybody else’s needs?” It’s not that simple. You’re not being asked to keep a tight ship OR run amok. You’re being asked to pay attention in a particular way, in a way that reminds you of your power, your place, and your purpose.

There are a million ways to be aware of what’s happening. How can you be aware of what’s happening for you, rather than to you? This is the difference between pathology and whatever you want to call the things I do. Heart Alchemy, Living Fusion, Oneness, being a Living Master…

It doesn’t matter what label you put on it. What matters is that you see all things as part of the conversation. As part of the conversation you can act from a place that reminds you of your power, your place, and your purpose. From this place you take responsibility for your reaction to the world and know that it is an invitation to be present on purpose. When you are present on purpose you are not making yourself or anybody else wrong and the universe is forever giving you intuitive guidance. When you follow said guidance, you are in the moment. When you are not following said guidance you are making up a story about what’s happening to you. Simple.

The pathology story leads you to better health and a happier life. The Oneness story is here, right now. No future, no past, no outcome, just presence. The intuitive guidance you follow (or not) is in the moment, not connected to a story about you getting what you want or making the world different. Life in this moment is in service to All That Is with full surrender to the fact that you are a gift with an important job. Coming back to this fact allows you to be present without needing any other confirmation, proof, outcome, reassurance, or signal that life is happening for you and the universe is always in perfect balance.

You know we are all doing the best we can with what we have and when you are asked to start a business or talk to the man at the bus stop or be still when your schedule is so tight there’s no room for toilet breaks… then you do what you’re told because you know the only thing that matters is that you are a gift with an important job (and the universe knows what you need to pay attention to).

Morning PagesAugust 02, 2014

Graceful Surrender

I’m so excited, I just secured my new business name ‘Heart Alchemy’ and bought a fabulous domain name to complement some of the work I will be doing. More than that, I finished the first chapter of my book for submission into the Transformational Author Experience writing contest (or at least the latest draft which at the rate I keep adding things to will be its own book soon) and keep getting sent new books to write! It seems the universe is intent upon making me a writer, even the cards I pulled yesterday were pretty transparent.

Once I registered my new business name I decided to put my energy into the cards to see what came up. Mostly I do this after I have made a decision rather than as a means to secure which direction I might go. I asked specifically about Heart Alchemy which is not just my new business name, Heart Alchemy is how I understand what we are all doing on the planet (conscious or not) as spiritual beings having a human experience. For me, rather than manifesting, creating, or learning I see everything as energy. That means there is no exchange between separate objects or entities, and there is certainly no upgrades or evolutionary conversion to one philosophy or way of life.

We are a diverse and dynamic experience of life for a reason. That’s one of the things I keep being asked to write about. So many people are trying so hard to get it right so that they can bring peace and harmony to the planet only to make their own experiences miserable! You have a right to know grace and a responsibility to do your part but this often gets confused with what you see going on in the world. If you could continue your work from a place of graceful surrender the only thing that would change is the way you feel. You would still be an advocate for human rights or the Slow Movement but you would not be crushed by every wave of ‘disappointment’ and ‘suffering’ that came into view.

That’s why I do what I do. Because I care so deeply about your experience of life as you do your job. I don’t want to change you or convert you or tell you what the world should look like. I just want to remind you of how fabulous you are because when you remember that, you are irrepressible! That’s all it takes. A bit of quality time spent demonstrating how important you are so that you can tell all the stories you keep hidden. A bit of reassurance that no matter what you’ve done you are still loveable. A bit of celebration to welcome home all the fabulous aspects of self you were born to embody. And a little permission slip from your soul to do what you love. Anyway, let’s not get too distracted from the excitement at hand 🙂

I ask about Heart Alchemy, pull three cards and check the bottom of the deck for a base note (this one tells me about the river of energy running through and beneath the others). The first is Serapis Bay Go Now! which has come up in the last three readings to tell me the universe is ready. The second is Jesus Open Your Heart to Love which you can read however you like as long as you remember it has the word ‘heart’ in it. The third is St Francis Follow Your Heart with yet another heart. And the Base note is Thoth Write.

Now, there are lots of stories I could tell you about how significant each of these messengers have been throughout my life. Serapis Bey is an Egyptian god, a bridge between Heaven and Earth who functions as a life coach. Not just a motivational speaker leading you to boost your income or call in the love of your life, Serapis shows you how to see all the things you do and all the places you live as a way to care for yourself. He helps you find the extra energy you need to create a holistic life plane (rather than a plan) where all worlds become one.

Jesus, I have studied as a person, a pawn, a prophet, and an energetic that has been created out of all the focused attention humans have pooled over the years. In a reading, for me, he can represent many things. In this reading I feel it is about my connection to him in the caves I see when I am taken back. Caves with hollowed out shelves in the walls with red candle wax. I also feel it is about the calm and surrender his message (or interpretations thereof) seem to bring people. Unlike other wisdoms his words seem to bring energy up from inside a person rather than coat them in serenity. This is a powerful way to love, to speak love into another’s heart and soul from their own knowing.

St Francis has been with me for a long time. He is not so far from Jesus when it comes to style. I fell St Francis brings inner peace rather than love. In the same way Jesus speaks and you know love fem your essence, St Francis lives and you know peace in your heart. He asks you to trust because your heart is the key to knowing all you need to know.

And beneath it all is Thoth the Egyptian god of writing. An aspect of Hermes instructor of the Hermetic principles of alchemy and Divine magic. The originator of written languages and scribe to the gods. If that’s not a celebration of channelling I don’t know what is!

Alchemy is not transformation. Transformation is moulding something into a new shape, like when you tell your story from a different perspective. Alchemy is more than translation, it’s a way to understand the incomparable in one picture without making either wrong or superior. It’s a way to know each has it’s purpose and not to question the value of it’s place in the world. For me, alchemy is about co-existing truths that empower everyone.

Looking at the messengers in this reading I am reminded of quality time, touch, words of affirmation, acts of service, and gifts. You may know these as the languages of love. I see them in the messengers we connect to who allow us to remember ‘I am a gift, I have a place, and no matter what, I am always doing the best I can with what I have’.

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